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february 4th, 20xx

his brother never says he loves his little brother, who is technically me now, but when i tell "mom" i need to finish the dishes before i can water the plants, the next thing i found was him in the backyard with the ridiculously bright yellow watering can in his hand. and whenever i struggle with a bottle of soda or a new jar of peanut butter, he mutters a c'mere and opens it for me without even sparing me a glance. or how he always says he's not a hugger but whenever i throw my arms around him as a joke, he's the last to let go.

i started noticing more things like this as i stayed longer in the house. they love each other so quietly yet the air is buzzing with tiny but grand gestures. i think it's adorable, beautiful even. but the more i notice, the harder it is for me to breathe.

tide is high,

moon is drunk...

march 27th, 20xx

i once heard people said, broken people, break people, so they can look at others in pieces and feel better about their own cracks. and i was confused back then, "how?" i would ask myself, how is it possible that hurting others makes you feel better?

the new girl was helping me at the coffee shop today, she looks like a nice girl, she greeted me with her soft yet determined voice and flash me a bright smile, she's a fast learner too, got half of the menu memorized on day one. i'm sure she'll do good as cashier and barista. she's perfect.

so i still can't figure out why i spill those boiling water on her. listening to her cries was dreadful, even more so when i have to explain to our boss that it was an accident and that her hands had slipped. she was taken to a hospital and everything went back to normal pretty quick. i get off work feeling quite content.

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the universe gasped, they never saw this one coming. unexpected, a plot twist.

— r, july 27

and why is she crying? why is this silver wolf, so perfect and untouched, weeping?

— a, march 8

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one simply does not mess with the likes of her, the biggest muscle she has is her heart.

— i, july 3

we were, and still are clueless. yet nothing can contrast our time's worth.

— h, march 24

let's climb trees, let's sword-fighting with sticks, let's laugh as loud as we can, let's run, let's be free.

— k, april 27

vessels sailed,

sailors sunk...

how wonderful to have found you, long paths await your steps.

— a/c, june 5

without thought, without intent, simply giving way to the inevitable, that's him pouring himself into lives.

— m, may 19

a safe place yet also the biggest adventure like a tranquil gaze and a childlike grin.

— b, sept 13

your soul shines with such brilliance; overwhelming but not a lost cause.

— k, sept 30

when regret has your name by the lips, i hope you remember love too has a name, and it is always yours.

— e, february 12

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september 20th, xxxx

life's a theater and i fell off the stage, and i mean it quite literally.

anyone can tell she was furious, that's what makes her smile so much scarier. but heaven knows i couldn't care less, i've made a mistake and i'll be damned (again, quite literally) before i regret making them.

my lights have been dull since way back, my wings heavier, and my halo barely visible. now i am all washed up. a has-been. i'd be lucky if the devil would take me in.

"don't look at me with such fear, love,"

fear? when my eyes are crying blood? when the once vibrant blue turns dark? i can't even bear the sight of her face. whatever fear is she addressing?

waves of sound,

sea of sharks...

july 8th, xxxx

i've never given much thought about humans, i do know that they're young and reckless but that's about it.

so i wonder from time to time, what makes her so different? why do i always found myself looking for her? is it that maybe she was someone in my past lives, or that she had a soul so glaring it captivates me, or maybe i just like how she held my hand back when she can still see me?

i've never given much thought about humans, let alone intervene in their fates.

so i wonder why in heaven would i leap so quick when she was drowning with that ship? it was upsetting to watch but i've seen worse, her friends were there too so they surely won't be lonely at Hearing. so why did i pull her out? why did i give her a part of me when i realized her heart has stopped beating?